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In the middle of February I had to move away from my friends n family. Its hard.. really hard. Lots of big changes happend and its all truly sinking in. As soon as I moved to where i am now my grades dropped. Nothing was funny to me anymore. False laughter and smiles all the time. I had heart aches so bad i had tingles in my fingers. Always thinking about the people i left... Aunts, Uncles, Friends.. my stepdad. Wasnt just me going through big changes, everyone was even my pets. Bubba is an outside dog now. His howls of loneliness make my heart ache even more. The emptyness in just made my heart sink through the floor. Never wanted this for any of my animals dont think they wanted this either. Lucky is also outside. Hes getting old. I worry one day he wont come back. I miss their snuggles i miss the warmth and love they gave me. I try to spend as much time as possible with them everyday. Bub finally got over his seperation anxiety about 2 months ago. Thats good, right? Havent called my stepdad in quite a while. Cant bring myself to talk on the phone with him. I feel like i might break down. Just found out he tried to reach out to me yesterday while i was in my room. My grandma picked up the phone and told him i wasnt here. I wish she wouldn't have done that. I wondered why he didnt just call me on my phone.. he tried but I accidentally had him blocked. Mustve happened when I logged on to his iCloud to help search for his phone. . . . Getting a little better now. Might visit him on the 17th cant wait, so excited. Ill give yall an update when the time comes. . . . Status at the moment: Puffy eyed but staying strong Relatable quote right now: "Im feelin so tired, really fallen apart" - Mac DeMarco . . . Waiting to update |
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Hey there. I understand how you feel (probably not exactly, but definitely can relate) I've moved a lot. Mostly when I was little, but also relatively recently. I remember feeling so sad and alone. What kept me going was my dog Lucky. I really hope you can bring your animals inside, at least your cat. Im so sorry that your dog howls, that breaks my heart :( The deep sadness did lessen overtime, but even now I'm still sad when something triggers a memory. I hope you will find something that can bring at least some joy. And I hope you can figure something out so that your pets can be indoors again. Sending virtual hugs <3 |
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I can relate completely. I moved in the middle of February as well, and I left everything that you left. Now my happiness isn't truly real, and I miss my family and freinds. |
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Update My momma said i can go!! just gotta book the ticket now |
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Another Update June 15, 2021 - 12:33 AM
Miss my dog & cat so much I wanna scream. Quietly bawling in my room. Wanna snuggle them. Theyre so close but yet so far. . . . Status at the moment: Heart ache hurts Relatable quote righr now: Cant think of one my mind is scrambled. |
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Update #3 Mom came into my room for no reason and just stared at me.. then when i said "what?" she said "what" in the most snooty way possible. When i didnt say anything she said "yeah" and snickered . . . New Status: Feeling unwelcome in my own home, need to get away for a little bit. |
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my mom forgot my birthday. |
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