Full Name

Miran Harrison Hastings

Nicknames

TBA

Name Pronunciation

Me-rin Reece Haste-ings

Name Meaning*

Sun-like, Power, Swift one

Gender

Male

Pronouns

He/Him

Sexuality*

UHm

Moral Alignment

Personality

Type of Neurodiversity

(ex. Autism, ADHD, etc.)

ADHD

Marin's ADHD shapes every aspect of his daily life, adding both challenges and unique vibrancy. His nature is amplified by the fast-paced world around him, often leaving him juggling bursts of creativity, social energy, and moments of overwhelm. His mornings are always a whirlwind. He hits snooze repeatedly but because his brain struggles to transition from rest to action. Once he’s up, it’s hard to focus on a single task—he might start brushing his teeth, get distracted by something shiny or an idea, and suddenly find himself trying to organise his room or finally sit down with his homework. He’s prone to leaving things half-done. His breakfast might sit untouched while he’s lost in a new project, or he might walk out the door without his keys because his mind is already racing ahead to the day’s possibilities.

Appearance

This boy embodies warmth in human form, his presence like a flash of sun. He stands at nearly 5'9, but tries constantly to make himself seem taller and more important. His slender frame speaks of grace to come, with long legs and lithe fingers, but for now his movements are clumsy and less than deliberate. Even so, he exudes comfort, and a high sense of mellowness that seems odd for a boy as hyper and jumpy as him, like a baby bird desperate to stretch its wings.

His hair is a highly prominent feature of his, being a soft, red-blonde with golden sun highlights that are just desperate to catch a sunbeam and turn his hair into a wispy mass of illusions of flames. Miran keeps his hair long and wild, normally the soft waves brushing over his shoulders, and it always looks vaguely windswept.

His eyes are a honey gold amber, nearly glowing with an eager intensity. They say the eyes are the window to the soul, and for Miran, this is very true. Emotions are always abundantly clear in his shining pupils, flecked with gold, and they seem to dance with happiness in a somewhat hypnotic way. One of his eyes has coloboma, a condition which causes the pupil to be larger and non-circular. This does cause slight vision problems in the lower regions of his sight.

His skin is luminous and warm, both to the touch and to the eye. Kissed bronze by the sun, it's clear how much time he spends outdoors, with only a few nicks and scars to mar the soft surface. The flesh seems to radiate heat, but with how much and how consistently he's moving, it would make sense if it was simply from that, right? His veins are easy to see, especially on his shoulders and wrists, but instead of showing blue or purple, they would be more described as an olive colour, only a tiny bit darker than the normal tone of his skin.

His face is delicately sculpted, with high cheekbones and a jawline that has the potential to be sharp once he grows into it, giving it a sort of regal appearance. His nose is long and straight, and his lips are full and effeminately pink. Miran's body is long and athletic, a wiry build that suggests that he's built for agility and speed rather than brute force and stamina. His shoulders are lean but broad, and his movements are smooth and effortless, as if he's perpetually in sync with some unnatural force.

In his phoenix form, the ember-like markings across his body are the most notable physical detail, and signify the beginning of the shift. They resemble cracks in cooling lava, glowing faintly from within. The markings on his hands and fingers are particularly vivid, like the embers of a fire he can summon with a mere thought. The change continues with the bursting open of spreading, glimmering wings, and the flames that lick from them.

His fashion choices are questionable, with anything ranging from something as simple as sweatpants and t-shirts to vivid crochet tops that show off hints of resplendent skin beneath. He prefers to be without shoes, a small fact that many don't notice due to how often he pushes the discomfort under.

Voice & Accent*

His voice is rich and melodious, more like listening to a song than speaking, with a crackling intensity. His speech is quick and lively, reflecting his busy brain, and ADHD-driven thought process. Miran talks with enthusiasm, his words tumbling over each other in bursts, especially when he's passionate about something. Sometimes he struggles to slow down, and his excitement can cause him to skip from topic to topic mid-sentence. Miran is naturally loud, not to be rude, but because his energy is so hard to contain. His speech and laughter are bright and uninhibited, and he's always searching for something to joke about.

Certain words are pronounced with a certain lilting rise and fall, making his speech seem especially dramatic or flourished. Consonants, particularly R's, are soft and rolling, and the harder the consonant the softer he seems to pronounce it. Miran has a nasty habit of picking up phrases or figures of speech from those around him, and use them liberally in his conversations, though not always in the correct way.

Type of Supernatural*

Phoenix

Strengths

-Creative-

-Good at Improv-

Weaknesses

-Distractible-

-Easily Overstimulated-

Backstory*

TBA

Favourite Quote

“Don’t let your fire go out in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all.”

-Ayn Rand

Affiliations

TBA

Other

|~| Smog |~|

Full Name; Smog Cerise-Neil Caligo.

Former Full Name; Asmoth Cerise Caligo.

Name Pronunciation;

Smog; “smaag.”

Cerise; “SU-REEZ.”

Neil; “NEEL.”

Caligo; “ka-LEE-go.”

Asmoth; “As-moth.”

Name Meaning;

Smog; “Combination of ‘smoke’ and ‘fog’.”

Cerise; “Cherry.”

Neil; “Fury, Passion, Hero, Cloud.”

Caligo; “Owl, Butterfly, Darkness, Mist.”

Asmoth; “God, Temperament, Excitement, Wrath.”

Nickname(s); Whatever you can come up with.

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Age; 19.

Gender; Dazegender. He/They/It. Mostly He/They, admittedly. Since that’s what’s easiest for most people. AFAB.

Sexuality; Recipro-Pansexual.

Mono/Ambi/Poly; Ambiamorous.

Birthday; December 21st.

Blood Type; O-.

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Alignment; Lawful Neutral. Admittedly comes across as Chaotic Neutral.

Type of Supernatural; Fey’ri. He can see in the dark, control how demonic he looks (basically), and mind powers don’t work on him (like telepathy). Oh, and it gave him a boost to strength, which is pretty great.

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Appearance;

(Credit to Potato-Lord@picrew.me)

As Smog is never in human form anymore, no need to go over it. Let’s just get into their much preferred Fey’ri form.

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Smog stands rather tall at a haunting 6’ 1”. His skin is the color of coal, with neutral undertones that don’t really do much. In his opinion, at least. He has freckles, but whether one can see them or not is another story.

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Smog has a rather square face shape, if only a little more rounded. Now for the nose, they’re nose seems just a little too large for their face, with a slight dip in the bridge and the tip of it rather pointed. Their lips are slightly fuller in shape, and they’re practically constantly scowling. Not on purpose, they just have a resting bitch face. Their ears and teeth are sharper than most people’s and their tongue is forked.

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His eyebrows are rather thin, probably because of how much he picks at them. Finally, his eyes are a deepset hooded shape and an odd orange color that tiptoes on the edge towards amber or even yellow. His face is framed by straight, bright purple hair with the sides shaved. It’s usually styled into a mohawk or a bun. Sometimes, depending on how much he’s hiding his demonic form, he’ll have horns and/or a tail. The horns are always similar to the ones of sheep, the ones that have four horns. Dragon sheep. The tail is pretty much always the stereotypical demon tail.

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Their body structure could quickly be described as rectangular, an average sized torso matched with longer legs. They tend to walk on the platforms of their feet, and wear inserts in their shoes to help make sure they don’t develop korn. Again. They weigh a healthy 150 pounds without their horns or tail, and a fine 160 pounds with the horns and tail. As for scars, they have a few. Mostly on their arms. They also have a scar going through their left eyebrow though. They also have a tattoo that they got at 16, while they were supposed to be in school. It's a stick and poke tattoo, a small, empty hourglass on their right inner forearm. Technically it never got finished, as it's supposed to have purple sand and yellow stars in it. They have no clue when they will get it finished.

(Credit to RenWhit@picrew.me)

Attire; He prefers darker colors, usually. Either that or neutral colors. Or yellows. He likes flannel a lot, and shirts or hoodies for bands he listens to. Sweaters, button-ups… Basically anything that covers more skin is something he’ll wear, he likes the pressure they put on his skin. He likes steel toed boots for shoes, preferably without laces because tying shoes is hard. He hates tags and always removes them from his clothing.

Jewelry/Accessories; Smog is almost never seen without headphones or earbuds of some kind. Other than that, he does have quite a few piercings and a pair of golden rectangular glasses. He has a silver spider bite piercing on the left, a double nostril piercing, and plenty of ear piercings. Admittedly more on the left ear. Two lobes on both ears, a rook piercing on the left ear, a tragus on the left ear, and four different helix piercings on the left ear.

Voice/Accent; They had a speech impediment when they were younger, and remnants of it are still there. They avoid words that show it off more though. In their more human form, their voice is pretty androgynous. In their more demonic form, and the form they prefer, it’s deeper. Lower. Overall though, their voice tends to be more flat. Monotone.

Handwriting; Smog’s handwriting is… Odd. Very sharp, very blocky, and usually big and slanted. Like he’s writing in permanent italics. Technically legible though. He always puts a slash through his zeroes.

Handedness; Right-Handed, they know how to use their left hand too though.

Posture; Their posture… Isn’t all that good, admittedly. They’re constantly hunched, though not to any insane degree.

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Personality;

Temperamental | Intense | Compassionate | Apathetic | No Sense of Self | Outwardly Arrogant | Self-Isolating | Clingy | Burnt Out Gifted Kid | Trust Issues | Envious | Academically Intelligent | Repressed | Stubborn | Protective | Defensive | Loyal | Somewhat Possessive | Distant | Jealous | Spiteful | Creative | Misanthropic | Self-Loathing | Resentful | Liar | Thinks He’s Self-Aware | Silver Tongue | Sarcastic | Not Self-Aware | Supportive | Oddly Closed-Minded | Insecure | Self-Sabotaging | Rebellious | Holds Grudges | Perfectionistic | Self-Critical | Internalizes Issues | Strong Sense of Justice | Absent-Minded | Hopeless Romantic | No Real Self-Worth | Guarded | External Validation Only | Cold | Pathological Demand Avoidance | Somewhat Hypocritical | Rigid | Independent | Bitter | Passive-Aggressive | Self-Deprecating | Reliable

Likes; Music, Jewelry, Academics, Animals, Energy Drinks, Flowers, Space, Birds, Night, Privacy, and Baking/Cooking.

Dislikes; People, Change, Coffee, Socials, Crowds, Breakfast, Pity, Bright Lights, Day, Authority, and Failure/Losing.

Strengths; Academically Intelligent, Intimidation, Silver Tongue, Quick Reflexes, Incredibly Loyal, Musically Gifted, Self-Sufficient, Stubborn, Creative, Lying, and Physical Strength.

Weaknesses; Sensory Issues, Self-Loathing, Quick to Anger, Internalizes Everything, Burnt Out Gifted Kid, Very Spiteful/Resentful, Emotion Regulation, Overprotective, Trust Issues, Perfectionist, and Fragile Ego.

Fears/Phobias; Abandonment is probably the biggest one. Though he’s also just incredibly scared of being unlovable and useless.

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Physical Health; They’re in pretty good physical shape for someone who doesn’t really exercise. Then again, he’s basically always in his demonic form now so… Not that surprising. He’s also near-sighted, hence the glasses. He's also got low iron, which is very annoying but doesn't do much except make him constantly cold, his hands are freezing. Along with all that, he has Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. It's gotten worse over the years, but it's not too concerning. He refuses to take pain medicine or use anything that'd help, so. That's about where it is.

Immune System; Smog only gets sick like… Once or twice a year. And he’s never sick for long either, three days at once at max. So. They’d say their immune system’s pretty good.

Neurodiversity/Mental Health; Autistic, mix of Discouraged/Quiet Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) & Self-Destructive Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Depression, Aphantasia, and Insomnia.

Allergies; Grass. No, seriously, they get a rash if their bare skin touches grass. Very annoying.

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Lover(s); None. (Open? PM me)

Crush(es); None. (Open? PM me)

Ex(es); There’s been a few… They never lasted all that long. Six months at max. (Open? Because that could be funny.)

Significant Other(s); None. (Open? PM me)

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Favorite Quote; They have no idea. They never thought about it.

Affiliations; TBD.

Themesong(s);

dying breath by updog.

Blood by Crywank.

Deep Down I’m Really Mark Smith by Crywank.

rats in my walls by ratbag.

RE: CONCERNS by Jhariah.

A Soreness so Familiar It Soon Becomes Unquestioned by Crywank.

I Am Shit by Crywank.

Crumpledbigskin by Crywank.

I’ll Have Some in a Bit by Crywank.

Misanthropic Drunken Loner by Days N Daze.

It’s Ok I Wouldn’t Remember Me Either by Crywank.

Aawake at Night by half•alive.

It Was a Swift Not a Swallow (I Never Listen) by Crywank.

Privately Owned Spiral Galaxy by Crywank.

Welcome to Castle Irwell by Crywank.

SPLIT! by Jhariah.

The Great Tale of How I Ruined It All by Jhariah.

Against the Kitchen Floor by Will Wood.

Cicada Days by Will Wood.

Backstory;

Smog’s life has been… Something.

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He’d never really fit in. Back in elementary school though, he was at least smart. Always one of the top in every subject. Which… He got some shit for, for whatever reason. Didn’t help that he was held back a grade due to the speech impediment he had at the time. He was a clingy kid too, sensitive and overdramatic. But what kid isn’t? Right? He ended up in trouble more than he’d like to admit. Well, either way, he’d had a small group of friends, mostly of people that had been outcast by everyone, including other outcasts. Which was funny. Even more funny, was that he’d already been questioning his sexuality by the later years of it.

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By middle school, Smog was already skipping school fairly regularly. Why? They… Don’t really know. Nothing had really ever happened to them. No big profound trauma, not even any major bullying. They just… A switch got flipped, and… Everything got a little harder. Oh, and they started questioning their gender. Nothing really changed in high school either. If anything, things got worse. They always managed to pass their classes, but what had been all A’s at one point turned into B’s and C’s with only the occasional A.

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Home life for Smog was… Uneventful too. His parents tried. He really thinks they did. They were there for him, and he’s pretty sure they love him. He just… Didn’t really have a connection with them though. He was distant. They were a little distant. He pushed away. And in middle school and high school, sneaking out was already fairly common for him to do.

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Throughout his life, they’ve been with a few people. Never for longer than six months, and usually a much shorter amount of time. They always try and put their all into relationships, as if each one has the opportunity to last forever, while also expecting it not to. They really want their relationships to last forever. They also tend to… Put their partners on a pedestal. They tend to put everyone on a pedestal at first, to be honest. He’s never sure how he managed to get with who he did at first, he’s never sure why anyone puts up with him at first. Like he’s inherently wrong or bad, which he is, in his opinion. Either way, something always tended to end up happening that switched his partners from perfect to terrible. Not worse than him, of course, never worse than him. But still not the perfect person on the pedestal anymore.

Other; Smog doesn’t stim much anymore, not by any noticeable degree at least. They do like to perch on trees and tables though. Basically anything they shouldn’t be perching on.

Reserve a spot for me please ^^

Warren Ellis Wade

Wren

Warren: War-in

Ellis: el-is

Wade: WAYD

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Wren: Ren

Male

He/Him

Bisexual

17

BPD

(Borderline personality disorder or emotional dysregulation disorder)

Chaotic Neutral

Warren's personality unfortunately hinges alot on his disorder. He trys to mask it to some extent but he's not very good at pretending to be something he isn't.

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Warren is extremely Insecure about himself. One day his nose can be too big but then the next it's the perfect size. On another day his feet can be too small, and then suddenly be too big. He's never happy about himself or his body. He's never sure if he's a good person or someone who deserves to be locked away for life. Whenever he helps someone and gets praised or thanked, he feels like the best person in the world, but if he makes a mistake or accidentally upsets someone, he feels like he's a terrible person. So yeah, he has terrible and extreme moods swings. One minute he can he on the top of the world but the next minute he can feel like he's in hell. Normally, though, his mood swings tend to be triggered by people's actions and words that just didn't come off quite right with him.

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Warren is extremely scared of those he cares about abandoning him. To make things harder for those around him, his fearful episodes usually come on with seemingly no explanation or when the chance of abandonment is not even likely, making him extremely unpredictable. To worsen matters, he usually makes frantic or desperate efforts to avoid being abandoned, which can be confusing for some when they don't understand why he's acting weird all of a sudden. One example of this is when Warren happens to be arguing with his friend or boyfriend. If that person happens to walk off so they can cool down, Warren will panic and beg, or even demand, that they stay and keep talking purely because he's afraid they will leave and never come back.

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It can be hard for Warren to be truly honest about his feelings because he fears that if he expresses concern, the other person will react negatively and therefore leave him. So he often just... doesn't bring up his feelings. And because he does this, he often blows up at the smallest problem. Oh no, his friends are coming over but there's dirty dishes in the sink. He'll fall apart crying. Same goes for when he's on a date with his boyfriend and something doesn't go right. And heaven forbid his boyfriend is actually upset? It'll be the freaking end of the world for Warren. He will do anything for the person he loves.

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Warren is also pretty Impulsive, doing things without thinking them through. He's definitely broken up with his boyfriend once or twice during his fearful episodes because if he leaves first, he can't technically be abandoned. But once he's done the reckless act and sees the consequences of it, he usually feels very guilty, upset and regretful.

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Warren also deals with paranoia, as well as times of complete emptiness. His paranoia tends to be most active when he's alone since there isn't any noise to drown out his thoughts. The paranoia is almost always related to his relationships, and more accurately his romantic relationships. It's hard for him to trust because of his paranoia, so whenever he's away from his boyfriend, he's always paranoid he's cheating. This also leads him to be pretty clingy. As long as he can see his boyfriend, all is right with the world. Anyways, moving on, Warren's emptiness is connected to his low self-esteem. He often just feels empty and tired inside. Sometimes he even feels nothing at all or numb. During these times he usually goes to his comfort person, whether it's his parents or his boyfriend, and just wants cuddles.

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People call BPD the most difficult mental illnesses to live with. Whether that's true or not, 50% of the time, Warren is just there to vibe. When he's not being controlled by his emotions, he's very chill and friendly. He's very go with the flow and is content to basically just do anything. Even when he's not having a BPD moment, he still likes to make people happy and get praise, so he often strives to make people smile. He's also very good at drawing and he loves to make up stories to tell his friends or just random people. He will sometimes write his stories down, but he rather just tell it outloud. So overall, when he isn't having BPD flare-ups, he's a very fun and nice guy to be around.

While Warren is always insecure about his appearance, he's not actually bad-looking. He's more like... average. He has an average nose and lips. His eyebrows aren't too big or too small, though they are slightly thinner than normal. The only thing that's truly not completely average is Warren's eyes, but unfortunately, they aren't anything outstandingly beautiful and his worsening eyesight has forced him to wear a pair of glasses. His eyes are small, dull and almost lifeless. Some would say they reflect all the emptiness inside of him. His eye color is pretty average too, just being a normal brown. They do have a few flecks of amber in them though, if you actually get close enough to look, or if the sunlight catches his eyes.

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For his body, Warren has a more lean figure. He has little to no muscle, all his appendages are lanky and much like his face, his body isn't very impressive. But again, he's in no way bad-looking. He stands at 5'10 but because he has horrible posture and usually always slouches, it can seem like he's around 5'8 or 5'9. Thanks to his overall aura, when you don't know this boy very well, he can often be found intimidating or unfriendly. It doesn't help that he has a resting bitch face. But when he's with people he's comfortable with, all that previous doom and gloom fades into a gentle warmness, inviting the people he loves farther in.

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Perhaps the only truly eye catching thing about Warren is his hair. His flowy, beautiful golden blonde hair that he usually parts to the left. It's super soft to the touch and has just the right amount of thickness, making it look like majestic lion's mane. While it's not super long, it does manage to cover his ears. It can be annoying though, when the wind catches it, making it tangle even when it looks like his hair shouldn't tangle so easily. Despite that minor inconvenience, his hair still gorgeous, even when it does happen to tangle. And yet, Warren usually chooses to hide his one best trait by wearing his signature beanie hat.

- Creativity; he has a big but healthy imagination

- Loyalty; this guy will never ever cheat on you or spill the secrets you tell him

- Empathetic; he knows what's it like to go through hell and he's been through alot mentally, so of course it's pretty easy to understand where others are coming from

- Perceptive; because of his disorder he has heightened intuition and sensitivity, so he tends to pick up on the subtle things and others emotions pretty easily

- Passionate; because he's so emotional, he often forms strong attachments and commitments to people and things

- Paranoia

- Extreme mood swings

- Impulsiveness

- Emptiness

- Extreme fear of abandonment

(These don't need an explanation because they are addressed in his personality)

Warren doesn't remember his real parents, of course. But sometimes he'll have this weird dream that makes him wonder about things. In the dream it's pitch black, but something warm(or rather someone) is holding him. A sweet female voice can be heard humming and the air smells of cinnamon rolls. And that's when he wakes up, often feeling a mix of sadness, comfort and unease.

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Besides the dream, however, Warren's life is pretty typical. He wakes up, goes to school, hangs out with his boyfriend or friends, does his homework and then goes to sleep to repeat the process. Of course, every day is slightly different with his roller-coaster emotions, but for the most part, nothing really exciting happens.

- Extremely scared of being abandoned

- Fearful of spiders

- Scared of upsetting others

"The battles that count aren't the ones for gold medals. The struggles within yourself—the invisible battles inside all of us—that's where it's at."

- Jesse Owens

Boyfriend: Smog, the newest development in his life, and Warren's first ever boyfriend. Will their relationship last? Who knows...

Friend(s): Open ^^

"Mother": Alana Wade, his loving mother, the person who always makes him food whenever he's feeling down.

"Father": Nathanial Wade, the person Warren always goes to whenever he needs to get something off of his chest.

Warren has an Identity crisis atleast once a year.

Warren is finally finished ^^