I'm doing better nowadays. Really, I am. My self-confidence is at an all-time high, and I feel more equipped to handle social interactions than before. I'm still learning, though I've had bad past experiences, and unfortunately they've molded me into a quite lopsided individual. They've ruined many of the chances I'll never get back. Nowadays, it seems to me there aren't many people left to find. Everyone already has their best friend.

And yet I've been clinging to the dream that perhaps, some day, I'll find just that person. The person who values me just as much as I value them, the person who will pick me in a room full of people, the person who will notice when I'm not around and search for me if they know I am. That I could for once be someone's first choice
I don't know if it's a selfish wish, though, to share such a close bond with someone, cause it sometimes feels like a luxury I just can't afford. Still, I keep dreaming. Perhaps that is why I create what I create

(Sometimes I feel like I'm being too kind and forgiving. Like a dog. Other times, I feel like I keep wronging the people around me just through being who I am. Personality disorders ain't easy to navigate,,
And it's been a little difficult, lately, if I'm gonna be honest - my physical health has declined, and I find that the list of the things I can do is getting shorter. I'll probably be grappling with my health for the rest of my life. But ah, we all have our struggles, anyways.)

Now this isn't something I like to talk about a whole lot cause I don't believe that my issues should be anyone else's but my own, but this is more of a reminder that anyone you know can be struggling even if they don't show it. And just simply reaching out can be such a powerful tool! Our world shouldn't be built upon only carrying your own burdens, I'm a firm believer that you should try to help everyone you love as much as you can, even if it's just through a simple "hello" :D

So please, check on your friends, tell them you love and value them, it can mean the world to them even if you don't know it yourself c:
And to anyone struggling, remember that isolation isn't the solution, and it DOES GET BETTER!!! <3

I wrote the majority of this when I was feeling a bit under the weather, but I still think it's important to emphasize these things - I'm blessed to have such amazing friends on here <3 Love you guys!!