i recently moved to a new state, about 3-4 hours away from where i have lived since i was 15. originally i was excited, we were going to buy a house and live in the mountains and start a new chapter. we moved because hes a semi truck mechanic and he wanted to persue his career more, gain experience and this new job also gave him a fat pay raise (went from 2.5k a month to almost 4k)

well, we ended up in a roomate situation in an apartment in the city with a lady with two kids and a dog. her dog is mean asf to my dog, her kids are obnoxious, she keeps making passes at my bf. my dogs are miserable, im miserable. my dogs went from a half acre fenced in yard with almost unlimited outside time to kennels and leashed walks. we live in a smaller city so i have to drive 45 mins to and from work, i get home when its dark and the drive is awful with there being bad traffic half of the time.

my passion is dogs and motorcycles. i had to sell my bike in the move and with spring around the corner and it being very unlikley i get a bike by then im becoming increasingly depressed. not to mention even if i had a bike i wouldnt be able to ride as much as im getting home later from work and without a yard for my dogs to run in they wouldnt be able to be home alone as long.

i cant do my monthly grooming with my dogs as theres no space in the apartment to groom them so we are missing out on one on one bonding time and im having to pay heafty grooming fees to have someone else groom them.

i hate it here, im trying really hard to stay happy but ive been noticably more angry since weve been here. it feels like im put back in my mentally ill teenage years where id go to school and come home and be locked in my room. i litterally go to work and come home and go to our room. her kids are rowdy and obnoxious and they antaganize my dog so its easier for me to just take them to our room and stay until morning.

idk, im just mad asf, i was promised a house with a yard and pretty scenery and was given a shared apartment in a shabby city, i miss my dad, i miss my bike, i missed getting home before the sun set and watching my dogs run and play in the yard.

i have to end this here or ill start a tangent about every tiny detail.

any words of encouragement are appreciated.