aaaah i really feel ya. :') i'm shit at talking to anyone that isn't immediately in front of me, even my closest friends. i feel bad that i don't reach out, because i know it seems like i don't care but i think about them a lot i just. don't do anything with those thoughts lol.

the way life is going recently i have no motivation to do things. my workplace might go under, which i kind of expected, but i don't know where i'd go. other doggie daycare places pay a lot less and i wouldn't be able to afford moving out, but for my own wellbeing i kinda need to move away from my family. :')

but motivation. just feeling tired all the time or feeling like whether you get out of bed or not, it doesn't matter. i've recently realized how depressed i have been, and uh approaching autumn and winter hasn't helped. idk if you experience seasonal depression, but. i feel like i'm overdramatic about it, but i miss the sun and the birds and wildlife. i never realize how much i need that until it's all gone.